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Gin Hahn,

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Struggling

Maybe if I embrace it in text on a screen it'll help.

I'm having a tough time. Professionally, its chaos. At home, I'm getting by, but not really the guy I want to be. Kids, well, we're all trying. Its complicated and never really gets any easier with humpty dumpty complicating things for us.

Hmmm, do I feel better? Not really, but I tried - I'll try some more.

I have no easy creative outlet and its suffocating me. Obviously, I'm not much of a writer - I may be, but probably have too much to say that hurts that I don't let it out - creates a block.

Musically - I don't play enough, when I do, its okay - too rusty for anything original to come out, and my fingers are out of shape so everything is clumsy and painful. And my voice only comes out after a few drinks - probably not a technique I should try to coax nightly.

November is "write a novel in a month" month - I thought about trying, but at the moment I'm too creatively bound up to get past it was a dark and stormy night. 50,000 words just won't be coming out of these fingers.

Food- its about the only thing (except for myIce) that is bringing me a whole lot of joy - not eating, although you might think so to look at me - I'm back up a few pounds - I've really been enjoying cooking lately. No, its not a future career path, sure I'd love to own a little neighborhood bistro, but I'm already 100K in debt - I can't really afford to go another one - and I'd probably be kind of like a food nazi anyway. You could come in, and drink what you like, but most nights you'd be eating what I like to eat - if I'm on a meat a potato kick, well- that's what you'd be eating. Seafood- vegan - probably not in my kitchen - I'll reheat you come mac and cheese and you can pick out the dairy.

Anyway - it seems like I spend a few hours a day thinking about what tonight's menu is gonna be. Fun for me, but most likely a chore for those who have to share a home with me. They usually don't want to worry first thing in the morning if they'd prefer chicken or beef for dinner. Or if I should give the homemade pasta another shot even though it tasted great, but the presentation was less than glorious. Who wants to always live in a test kitchen?

And then there are the dishes - I freakin' hate to clean the kitchen - so that kinda gets in the way of my cheffin'.

Anyway, I'm doin fine - just too much time to think about the things you can't control and that can be pretty stifling.

Do me a favor - don't drop me a line and see how I'm doing - remember while I write to you, I don't expect you to read. You are hypothetical, just in case I need to remind you of the rules. This is where when I get a chance to, I jot my thoughts, leave a link to something that I'll think is stupid in five years. Its my time capsule. Spelling and grammar don't count... this is my therapy. You just get to glance in and make judgements, share them as you will, but keep them from me - I'm critical of myself enough for both of us.

Gin Hahn!
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